A step closer to the future…

Here I am..again, being confused, stress, and struggling alone.

What a stressing week I got last week. Got a new project from my professor, while I am still trying to cope with my previous one.

pff.. " Wechselwirkung einzelner rod-coil-Blockcopolymer mit nanostrukturierten Oberflaechen- ein experimenteller zu Selektivitaet und Mustererkennung" that’s the title of the new project. Honestly, I even dont know the english translation. What I know is, the project is meant to couple a rod-coil-block Copolymer to the assembly molecules we are now using, Biphenyl thiol, BPT, using gold as substrate..

pff.. I dont know from where to start this project. maybe just literature studies, but i am rather more confused than being able to understand. And the project is described in german.. hey… I have been here in Germany since July 2005… only few words I know so far.. pfff.. but, just keep continue.. sometimes, idea and breakthrough just the matter of time.. hikss..

Back to my last progress report to my professor..

I know, my prof admitted that he expected more from me. He asked me, to work as excellent as my work during my master. pff.. I feel a heavy burden. Yes, I did finish my study at the age of 24, then started my PhD before i was 25yrs old. But what’s the point? It was my previous supervisors during my master studies, who are excellent. They have written articles and publications based on our team-experiments. I am not that clever, just luckier… and, I never put the list of those publications on my CV.. honestly, I am shame, because I donot think I gave significant contributions for writing them. haaahhhh….

well, it’s very hard for me living in Germany…. being alone in a new city, a new language.. identity problem, etc etc.. but, yes, I have not yet struggled 110% here..

I just hope, by writing in my e-diary, it will make myself bit relaxed, and ready for the next fight…

have a nice evening (for myself)

Bielefeld, Oink oink…

Well, below are nice jokes to read during ur leisure time… not really funny, but, still, u can rise ur eyebrows, though…

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M :"Are you an Interior Decorator?"
W: "No. Why?"
M: "When I saw you enter, the room became beautiful"
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M:"Are you religious?"
W:"Yes "
M:"Good, because I’m the answer to your prayers."
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M:"Baby, did you fart, Cause you blow me away…" (Ancur minah..")
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M:"How is your fever?"
W:"What Fever?"
M:"Oh..you just look so hot to me…"
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M:"Wow! I didn’t know that angels could fly so low!"
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M:"Can I get a picture of you to prove to my friends that angels do really
exist."
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M:"Wow! How did you do that???!!!"
W:"Do what?"
M:"Look so good…"
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M:"Hey, I lost my phone number…can I have yours?"
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M:"Hey Laura!! (Big Hug), I haven’t seen you FOREVER!!!! (Huge KISS) Wow,
you’ve really have changed!!! W:"Wait, I’m not Laura.." M:"What? Omygod, You
even changed your name!!!
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Anyway, Nice weekend ..

Hugs,

~Ican~

For My All DEarest Friends,

I wish you all A HapPY aNd PRosperous 2006.

Let’s work harder and may our DReams come true.

Best WIsHEs,

ICaN

Don’t you know that the statue of Prajnaparamitha, the goddess of beauty, from the Singasari kingdom age, is really beautiful?

Actually, I have never been in Museum National. The right statement is, I never wanted to go there when I was still in Indonesia. Yes, you got it, I have less appreciation for the archeology. Do not blame me coz I think, most of boys or girls from my generation won’t go there either. Let’s ask a boy or a girl of 20, ask him or her whether he/she would like to go to Museum National? I will not that surprise if the answer is "no". Place like PH and etc etc. are of course more interesting.

But, today, together with Wangsa and Hans, we went together to de Nieuwe Kerk in Amsterdam. There is now exhibition about Indonesia. What are shown are 300 top historical  archeological objects uit het museum national van Jakarta en ook Rijkmuseum voor volkenkunde in leiden. Wat we hebben gezien, zijn, meestal, beroemde grote beelden uit Singasari periode, (13 eeuw, of niet?). Ook van Sulawesi, Lombok, Bali, en natuurlijk, Sumatera. Veel goudvondsten.

I saw lot of  statues and ornaments there. A lot of buddha statues in all style, were displayed. You name it, sitting budha.. standing buddha, laughing budda.. all kinds, and they were originally, the ornaments from Borobudur temple. Also, Batari Durga was nice but bit scary.. lol.. yeah.. it’s not surprising if we do not like the goddess of the death..But, what amazed me so much, was, the statue of Prajna paramitha, the goddess of beauty from the Singasari period. It’s was so so so amazing, and very very beautiful one.  And I did not know before that the statue belongs to Rijkmusuem volkenkunde in Leiden. Anyway, I was just amazed.

In the way going home, i chatted with Wangsa. I told him, why there were lot of people visited the nieuwe kerk, just for seeing the old statues? I think, we will never see the same thing happens to the museum in Indonesia.. crowded from visitors… Maybe, that’s the long-time problem for the museum bestuurder in Indonesia. Wangsa told me, He is sure, if the museum national displays her collections the way the Nieuwe kerk displayed and decorated the exhibition, He’s sure, there will be more people coming to the museum.

I think, Wangsa is 100% correct. When we were inside the nieuwe kerk, everything was displayed nicely. The decoration, the interrior was great. Comparing to the Museum National, when we saw a clip about museum national, it looks dark, humid, so ooooooooooooooooooooldd… not a good interrior. that’s why less people are interested to visit.. plus no good advertisements about what happens or what will be the exhibitions in the Museum.

So, I think, if the museum national improves the way the displays the collections, and has good bang bang advertisements about all the exhibitions held by it, I am sure, there will be more visitors. And by the end, we can appreciate our own country much more while we are still there. So, we do not have to wait until we go abroad, just to be able to appreciate our beloved indonesia….

So, for all friends of mine in Netherlands, it’s really worth to go there to see the "Indonesia" exhibition, at de Nieuwe kerk, Amsterdam. Kijk op http://www.nieuwekerk.nl  and do have a good time there.

Have a nice day,

~lagi pusing~

RESEARCH LIVE for UNDERGRADUATES: experience research in a major accelerator laboratory.

International Summer Student Program 2006 Aug. 7 - Sep. 29, 2006

For more information, just click to this URL,

http://theory.gsi.de/stud-pro/

Good Luck

~ican~

Hurrah.. just got ticket for Janine Jansen’s Derde International Kamermuziek Festival in Utrecht..that would be lovely and nice….

See you there…

groetjes

XXX

PhD studentship:

2 Ph.D. positions in Nanobiotechnology at University of Bielefeld, Department of Physics, Thin Films and Nanostructures Field(s): applied physics, biophysics, electromagnetism, nanotechnology

Application deadline: Dec 31 (Sat), 2005 Submitted: Nov 08, 2005
Contact: Prof. G. Reiss E-mail: herths2000-internet@yahoo.de
Address: Fakultät für Physik Universität Bielefeld Postfach 100131 D-33501 Bielefeld

Job description: The University of Bielefeld offers two positions in the area of bionanotechnology in the group of “Thin Films and Nanostructures”. Both positions are part of the SFB 613 “Physics of single molecule processes and molecular recognition in organic systems” with the topics “In-situ measurements and bond dynamics of the protein-DNA interactions” in cooperation with the group of genetics, and “Manipulation of biomolecules with magnetic beads and the integration of highly sensitive TMR sensors”, respectively. In both topics the experimental studies can be assisted by computer simulations.

A very good M.S. degree or diploma in experimental physics, biophysics, biology, biotechnology or similar subjects is required for both positions. Additionally, skills in solid-state physics, especially in the areas of magnetism, thin films, and lithography is desirable. For the first topic, some knowledge in the basics of biochemistry and genetics would be an advantage, for the second topic experience with nanoparticles and biomolecules.

We welcome applications from severely handicapped people.

We particularly welcome applications from women. Given equal suitability, qualifications and professional achievement, women will be given preference, unless particular circumstances pertaining to a male applicant predominate.

For more information see http://www.spinelectronics.de/ or contact herths2000-internet@yahoo.de or Michael.Schilling@physik.uni-bielefeld.de

Pheewww…..it’s time to think about my x-mas holidays… i guess so.. earlier is better, since i can buy cheaper ticket for the holidays..

so, the next thing to do..contacting my lovely friends in groningen…hope they will plan the same as i do.

boring… and bored…

have a nice day all..

ican

At last, today, I got my residence permit in germany, health insurance, and renewed my phd contract. What a happy day today…

I wish everything goes well, my life and my study. I wish I can do my best, finishing my study here in Bielefeld well.

Wish you all have a nice day…

greets…