A step closer to the future…

Here I am..again, being confused, stress, and struggling alone.

What a stressing week I got last week. Got a new project from my professor, while I am still trying to cope with my previous one.

pff.. " Wechselwirkung einzelner rod-coil-Blockcopolymer mit nanostrukturierten Oberflaechen- ein experimenteller zu Selektivitaet und Mustererkennung" that’s the title of the new project. Honestly, I even dont know the english translation. What I know is, the project is meant to couple a rod-coil-block Copolymer to the assembly molecules we are now using, Biphenyl thiol, BPT, using gold as substrate..

pff.. I dont know from where to start this project. maybe just literature studies, but i am rather more confused than being able to understand. And the project is described in german.. hey… I have been here in Germany since July 2005… only few words I know so far.. pfff.. but, just keep continue.. sometimes, idea and breakthrough just the matter of time.. hikss..

Back to my last progress report to my professor..

I know, my prof admitted that he expected more from me. He asked me, to work as excellent as my work during my master. pff.. I feel a heavy burden. Yes, I did finish my study at the age of 24, then started my PhD before i was 25yrs old. But what’s the point? It was my previous supervisors during my master studies, who are excellent. They have written articles and publications based on our team-experiments. I am not that clever, just luckier… and, I never put the list of those publications on my CV.. honestly, I am shame, because I donot think I gave significant contributions for writing them. haaahhhh….

well, it’s very hard for me living in Germany…. being alone in a new city, a new language.. identity problem, etc etc.. but, yes, I have not yet struggled 110% here..

I just hope, by writing in my e-diary, it will make myself bit relaxed, and ready for the next fight…

have a nice evening (for myself)

Bielefeld, Oink oink…

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